Tuesday January 8th, 2008
As a mother, a business owner, a teacher and a trainer I am constantly on a quest for balance. Most of the time I feel as though I am just chasing my tail. Constantly reacting to the demands of the day. The more roles I have to portray the harder it is to feel authentic and at ease. As my life expands with new opportunities and responsibilities I am careful to note if my heart is as full as my plate. In our effort to be more and do more - we have to be careful not to become our to-do lists.
One of the ways we can attain Samadhi, a non-dualistic state of consciousness, in which the mind becomes still, is through yoga. Lately, the more fragmented I feel the more I’m drawn back to the practice. While stressing in traffic I hear my voice telling my students to soften their faces, relax the corners of their eyes and I think, why not me? When overwhelmed with the struggle to juggle, I think of instructing my class in Vrksasana, tree pose. “Root down, to lengthen up, come into your breath, find your drishti (or fixed gaze, where the eyes stay soft, never straining).” In that moment, I am reminded that the power to slow down and be still rests in my limbs, just a tree pose away.
The first time I attempted, Eka Pada Rajakapotasana (Mermaid Pose – variation of One-Legged King Pigeon), I was less a graceful mermaid and more a flopping fish! The harder I tried to yank my limbs together in an image of perfection the more my body flailed and failed me. I kept practicing and several months later I heard my own teacher’s voice in my head, “the key to this pose is to hug everything in.” In that moment I returned to me, softened my gaze, opened my heart and gave myself as much love as I’ve tried to give others. In that moment, I became “The Mermaid,” I became balanced, I became me.
I read a quote recently by Jack Nicholson that struck me deep within. He said, “I sat there opposite John Huston and realized that at least for a short while I knew the best man alive. That is on a very personal level, it’s not about what he did, it is just the actuality of the person.”
While I and you may be mothers, teachers, professionals or students, we are not those things. The actuality of our person resides deep within. The balance we seek exists simply in the rhythm of our breath.
– Namaste, Deanna Hirsch